Beanerbaby's Journal "From Despair to FREEDOM!!!"

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Beaner

Delighted to see you still right on track. That's the spirit. Keep beating up on The Beast, keep loving yourself. A lot of people are enjoying seeing you so sober, including me.

Keep the Faith

T

[Beanerbaby]

Thanks T, I'm trying really hard here! You can do it too!!! I know you will!!!

Tomorrow is 30 days!!! WHEW!!! Just the beginning of course! But a nice day it will be! Of course, I must work on TODAY first!!! Today I will not view P and I will flee from Immorality! And then on to Achieve the 45 day goal which, in 2 weeks, will be HALFWAY to my 90 days!!!

Btw, did anyone notice my new Stewie avatar? He's FREE! That's how I feel right now!!!

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Beaner:

You've got a new avatar and a new life is being built, too. Doesn't it feel great? It's like banging your head against the wall -- and then noticing how good it feels when you stop. Shucking an addiction is like walking out of a building that has filled with smoke to the point you're choking, and outside the air is crisp and the birds are singing, huh?

Keep going, and officially inform us on the 30 days!

T

[Beanerbaby]

I made my 30 days yesterday! Yayy!!!

Today is day 31. 2 weeks from today is 45 days, Halfway to the 90 day goal I'm dying to reach! I'll be posting more on my journal this next 2 weeks, for these next 2 weeks could be critical. I must not let my guard down! In 2 weeks I WILL have my 45 chip up!!!

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Hey Beaner, I just said WAY TO GO in your other journal, too.

This is your main journal, right?

YOU ARE AMAZING.

Keep going, and remember:
"Whether you think you can, or think you can't, you're right"
- Henry Ford

[Beanerbaby]

Well, I think this is the week for struggling!

Last night I was walking a very thin line between middle circle and falling into the pit of P. I was WAY TOO CLOSE!!! I CANNOT do that and succeed, playing with fire WILL get me burned!!! I must continue to recommit myself to No MC behavior!!! Maybe I should post on the MC thread EVERYDAY for awhile! I will NOT allow me to sabotage my streak!!! 10 more days and I've hit 45!!! 2 weeks from tomorrow will be 50. I'll be D*mned if I'm going to ruin that!!!

[growthspurt]

Hey Beaner,

Sorry I've been sparse but I'm glad you're doing so well. Keep it up man keep it up.

GS

[Beanerbaby]

I am now officially in day 40!

[eljefemaz]

Awesome, my brother! I am so happy for you!

-EJ

[growthspurt]

I was just thinking that you're almost halfway to your 90 days clean. That'll be sweet. Keep going.

GS